Sunday, January 17, 2010

Because I Love Her

I love my daughter more than I ever thought I could love.  Despite the stress of raising her I love her.  God has graciously shown me just how deep my love runs this week . 

Even when she screams at church so loud that her Dad can hear her while he’s preaching.  Everyone around me probably thinks she’s a monster.  Sometimes I think so too.  But I’ll keep working with her because I love her.

Sometimes she won’t get in her car seat.  And I’m in a hurry.  It frustrates me.  It makes me mad.  But I‘ll be patient because I love her.

Sometimes at night she cries and screams and won’t stay in bed.  She needs a drink and a song and a night light.  She climbs into our bed at two o’clock in the morning.  It’s hard to sleep.  But I’ll cuddle up and then carry her back to bed because I love her.

Sometimes she gets mad when I say no.  I have to say it again and again.  But I’ll be consistent because I love her.

Sometimes she gets tired of shopping and doesn’t cooperate.  She throws things out of the cart and puts extra stuff in.  It’s exhausting but I’ll get through it because I love her.

Sometimes I think she is going to kill me but I would die for her in a second because I love her.

Sometimes I wonder why I had five kids.  I wonder why she acts the way she does?  But I can’t imagine life without her because I love her.

Sometimes we are swimming she jumps to me with pure thrill and fire in her eyes.  I never want her to lose that because I love her.

Sometimes she looks up at me with big brown eyes and laughs.  She smiles with her dimple and those are the moments I’ll always cherish because I love her. 

Sometimes she wraps her arms around my neck and says, “I love you, Mommy” and my heart melts because I love her.

I know another parent who feels the same way.  The daughter is stubborn and rebellious.  She is selfish and prideful and continues to go her own way.  Sometimes she does not seek to honor God first.

And her Father consistently replies I will be faithful, because I love her.  I will send my son to die for her, because I love her.  I will forgive, because I love her.  I will discipline, because I love her.

There is nothing the Father won’t do for his daughter, because he loves her.

Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Jennifer said...

Wow! I can relate.....Thank you for the reminder that we persevere because of love and because of what God has done for us. What an amazing parent He is.

I really appreciate your honest reflections. It is crazy, but so often you are writing my own thoughts and feelings. I am thankful for the "reality" checks that through God"s word you point out.


SahlbergFamily said...

Thanks Michelle! I have the hardest time disciplining my baby, Daniel, but I do, and I remind myself, it's because I love him. And it's oh so worth it as I see him developing the character and heart of Christ. And God does the same thing, as you said, "Those whom He loves, He chastises." Great blog.