Tuesday, January 11, 2011

The Answer

Wondering about the future and who I am has sparked some conversations recently.  I’m finding that a lot of us wonder about those life questions that nag at you:  Where do I go from here?  How did I end up raising all these kids?  How do I let go?  What is it going to take to rediscover myself?

All those things are a big time struggle.  And I’ve struggled with them a lot.  It seems like just as I came to peace with being home with little ones, they weren’t little anymore. 

I remember when Abby was getting old enough to leave (that took awhile because I think she nursed the longest of any of our kids) we went to a wedding out of town for the day.  After three years of having an infant attached to me, I didn’t know what to do with myself or how to visit with people without it.  I had always been a social bug and able to carry on a conversation with a brick wall.  As much as I felt tied down by pregnancy, nursing and babies, when it was gone I felt empty. 

Just this week as I was thinking about it, those feelings were fresh.  Seven years later, I don’t have any answers.  And then it hit me.  That is the answer.  In case you think I’m just loopy from the penicillin, let me explain.

The true answer to all of our hearts desires is God.  So if in the process of praying, struggling, seeking through all of these issues– we get God, that’s the answer. 

Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:1-2

If we are relying on Him the direction we go is not the end, it’s the beginning.

I don’t think it’s as important where we go, as who we go to

I don’t think it’s so much what we do,  as who we do it for.

Maybe it’s not so much what direction we take, but who we take our direction from.

Whether we have kids or not, work or stay home, home school or public school as long as we are drawing near to God, seeking His glory, honoring Him with our lives, that’s the prize.  That’s the answer.

He’s the answer.

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.  Philippians 1:9-11

3 comments:

3 Dudes and a Diva said...

You nailed it!! I think you must infiltrate my mind! This is EXACTLY what I needed to read. Thank you for sharing!

Stephanie said...

So very true. My struggles may be different, but the answer is definitely the same. Your post couldn't have come at a better time. Thanks!

Peter and Nancy said...

One thing we all have in common, no matter what we're "doing" with our lives, is the knowledge that we were made for something & someplace else. You're so right . . . as long as we're drawing closer to God, we will feel as satisfied on earth as we can feel, until we're in heaven.
Nancy